08.28.2015

A Time for Everything

There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under the heavens:

a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,

a time to search and a time to give up,

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.

~Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

 

Hello! The time has come for me to step back into the blog world and say “Hi!” again. 

I’m starting a fresh new post. Its been 22 months since I last stepped foot on this blog. Yikes! I was little overwhelmed at the 1,579 unread comments (yeah…I may not get to those anytime soon). But I finally decided that this little detail should not delay me from writing something any longer. Also, you may have noticed I decided to make the blog look more simple. I like it this way and I hope you do too.

I was positive I would never be writing here again…but something inside told me “don’t shut the blog down”. I found it annoying because I don’t like to leave things open ended, but I just had to trust my gut and keep it up. I even had to talk about it over and over and over again with friends and family just to convince myself I was making the right choice.

I’m going to be honest…I did not think I would be able to recover and be “normal” and fulfill my purpose in life. I was starting to loose hope but God turned things around and placed people into my life who did not allow me to drown. Kindness, compassion, honesty, support and motivation from my loved ones kept me afloat during the hardest times until I could finally float on my own.

 

Rewind

You may be asking yourself the basic questions that go through everyones mind when I tell them these things. “What happened to you?”

I’ll rewind little.. It first started with most likely a TBI (traumatic brain injury) at age 2 when I fell out of a tree. Age 2 is a critical age for brain development. It was always overlooked or forgotten since my problem always simply seemed to be just “allergies”. If you have followed my blog, you know how my past “healing journeys” have focused on allergies and restrictions with little  actual healing/progress happening. But my one reliable doctor made a quick comment how a brain injury can set the nervous system in “fight or flight” for years. In my case 20 years!

So ever since this missing piece was discovered  (I saw several neurologists and started therapy with a functional neurologist) I have been getting well. I was even running again months after my first therapy session (I just needed to test it out! But currently my favorite forms of excercise are walking and swimming!) It was not easy at all, but worth it to stick it out and do the daily therapy to reboot my left side. These times taught me perseverance, patience, and I saw amazing support and love from my therapy helpers.

You know the saying…”2 steps forward and 1 step back”? Its been a year of this “dance” but for some reason I have never been able to look back and actually believe the progress. But several months ago I remember the day I actually believed it (after my mom clearly said “look how far you have come”.) It really make me stop and think for the first time because I actually believed her and saw what she meant.

I’m able to live in the present, think and plan about my future and am taking steps and leaps to following my true purpose in life. I believe if I put my mind to it, I can do anything God hands me to complete. It’s fun to trust and then go out and do the task!

For a long time everything on my left side went numb. Purple feet, loss of sensory nerves, and little motor function was at its worst. So my daily neurological exercises were designed to target the vestibular system in my brain and reconnect or develop neurons to help with sensory, depth perception, balance, coordination and vagus nerve stimulation. These therapies done in the office of the doctor or at home (sometimes up to 4x a day or gargling 15x a day) slowly improved my cognition, immune system, mood, motor skills, and even outlook on life. But I’m happy to say it all worked!

The therapies changed over time as I began to heal to target more parts of the brain- including nerves on the face, tongue, head, stomach. Just to give you an idea I had a routine of gargling, mirror therapy, cross crawl exercises, posture balancing, and using a handheld electrical pulse stimulator in my own time. Lots of fun stuff! Reading and writing became much easier with practice and stabilizing how my eyes track and move. I found the process fascinating and used it as an opportunity to learn about how the brain and nerves work together.

 

The Now

Life right now is pretty normal. Im not sure exactly what the future has for me but I know I’m happy to write a post on my blog again!  I feel like I re-found my natural tendencies to want to learn and connect with natural like minded bloggers, farmers, friends, and my church community. I’m thinking about starting up some classes and hopefully get a good job. I love summer because it always feels like an adventure! See you around.

I’ll share some pictures from my life in the past year.

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Winter on the lake 2016.

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My favorite picture of my favorite saint (Saint John Paul 2).

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Sister love <3.

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Art Museum with my friend!

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Trying fun foods – coconut and hemp milks.

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My daily therapy on the mat.

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Gargle gargle gargle (for my neurological rehabilitation).

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Minnesota Spring 2016 sunset.

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A deer right outside my door that came closer the more I talked to it.

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The lake is starting to smell like summer!

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Reading, writing, sceduling and organizing my life.

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After 6 months of just pureed food I relearned how to chew and swallow (Brushing my teeth and gums was a unique therapy designed to help stimulate tongue muscles).

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Take the bus to the local Co-op!

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I love going into my church to just pray!

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Learning the bus system around my area (this picture was at the station.)

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Yum. Frozen berries on a hot day make everything better!

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Swimming in the backyard with some friends! I love little kids 🙂

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Organizing my fridge and getting all the food prepped to be eaten. Lots of chopped bell peppers, carrots, cucumber, lettuce, cilantro. Sorted vegetables for juicing. Green juices in jars. Avocados. Fresh pureed cranberries (very tart). In the side door: krill oil, olive leaf liquid and probiotic, also vera juice, hemp oil, selenium liquid. 

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Daily verse. “You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might.” ~Deuteronomy 6:5

Swimming off the dock 🙂

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This is how I travel. Giant bag so I can fit therapy items when its needed.  Like my handheld electric stimulator to “reboot” my left side, aftershock headphones to hook up to my “brain tones”, vitamins to take with meals. Water or tea. Hand wipes.

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Doing some therapy. This stimulator is really improving my coordination and helps with nerve pain and sleep! “Fisher Wallace Stimulator® enables the brain to produce serotonin naturally while improving the brain’s ability to regulate the limbic system”

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My happy place. Summer 2016.

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Fresh flowers from the Co-op for my family <3.

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Of course, a feather! My favorite.

“He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.” ~Psalm 91:4


caroline




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