Waiting for my miracle

** After days of trying to write this, I decided it will be easiest if I just be completely honest. Even though it was hard, this is what happened and I can’t hide the truth!** After all I have gone through ( and several of you checking in to make sure I was ok), I think you deserve to know my struggles and miracles! Here it goes…**

I thought this was it…like  the end, that life was just going to get harder and darker. The days grew shorter and the smiles grew to be zero.


The days with tears and worries eventually outnumbered the laughter and joy.

It felt like the battle was being fought and nobody know which day, thing, smell, sound would cause my illness to escalate to unbearable levels.  I actually did not know either!
My nightmare came to life..not in a dream, but after I awoke from a dream. The prickling around my body intensified and each week the craziness never subsided.
What was happening? I had no idea. Doctors had no idea. Nobody really knew!
I’m being very honest. It was torture to live in such a sick body.. I just wanted to rip free and come out healthy. No swelling, No tiredness, no nausea.
I can’t even give you a glimpse into a normal day. because the days were almost non-existent other than little food/ baths/ and streams of tears. Every. Day.
It felt like forever but I guess It was only *this* bad for a year. I was up and awake more the months before that, but my health was always on the downward path.
Many of you are probably asking…what happened?! Why?
We spent months…no years ( 18 to be exact) trying to figure out why my body ticks differently. I don’t have answers and I’m actually ok with that. I don’t want to obsess about my health anymore, because it’s not healthy! I’m only moving forward ( after I write this recap post though.)
God literally pulled me out of my drowning life…but It took ALOT of patience.
The first time I asked Him to save me was 16 months ago when my skin turned yellow.
I asked again when my food choices were down to 2 things.
I asked again when I started sleeping 15 hours a day. Then 16. Then 18.
I asked the day I lost my breathing for a few minutes.
I asked when it felt like the walls were closing in on me and touching things made my skin burn.
I asked him when I saw my sisters, brother, mom & dad cry because they thought they would loose me.
It eventually became a beg. My prayer was.. “Please God, nobody knows anymore. I think I’m dying, but I know it’s not my time, please save me.”
But my patience was being tested. I asked my mom often “how can I get any worse?” Obviously she did not know the answer, but I just wanted any confirmation or answer. Unfortunately it got worse.
The prickling like bugs crawling all around me was making my mind go nuts.. pain and irritation can do that.
The days and weeks and months all blurred together. My purpose every day was to not fall apart mentally and keep strong (or as best as I could) . The swelling and inflammation was the worst. It affected my breathing, eating, sleeping, walking. I went to the ER a few times but they could not find anything unusual.
I had lots of signs for kidney infections so I did all I could for that. I took hour-long healing baths but the minute I got out.. the relief was gone.
I am still sad to think how hard my family tried to help me but I only got worse despite all efforts. They went above and beyond realistic abilities to keep my reactions minimal and I think my family’s diligent and persistent traits really served a purpose in this situation. Its hard to think back to these situations, but I try and remember how every day someone would wash all my vegetables to make me a giant juice (yum!) or rub reflexology points on my feet to ease pain. Or the way my dog would roll over on his back instead of doing a full body jump (like he does to everyone else). I guess he could sense my weakness. Or even how my someone would stay up with me if I was having a rally bad night. Those little things meant the world to me. That was my world.
Having a conversation with me was rare. I’m not sure what I even thought about now that I look back. I was so numb.. just surviving until something would happen.  I guess there was a small part that still hoped for a miracle.
And actually…that what I got. The end of July a childhood friend came over (first friend in over a year)  because I was so tired and reactive guests were rare. By then we had a system. The guest showers, changes into safe clothes and then they are safe to be around .
We talked and I realized if he could get through such a rough patch in life… why couldn’t I?  It shouldn’t matter if its a death, health, or a tragedy. God wants us to tackle these huge hurdles with His help. So thats exactly what I decided to do.
I got this energy and determination that came out of no where (like I said… most days I could hardly get out of bed). I woke my mom early and asked if she would go spend the day outside on the lake with me (I had not made it past the door or driveway in months because of close neighbors exhaust, laundry detergent, pesticides, etc.) Of course I missed the outside but one exposure to a chemical made my body violently react. It was a difficult situation.
But that day was different. I stayed on the lake for 8 hours. Every hour my mom commented how the swelling was going down. My mind became crystal clear and my coordination came back!
I was exhausted but hopeful when I went back inside my house. But I got a strange sense when I walked back in. My parents were all excited and chatting away about this big step and all I could think about was my swelling sinuses, glands, fingers and then throat! oh boy.. it clicked. Its the house!
*Sometimes* I jump to conclusions… but this was pure instinct and direction from God. “Get out now!” I did not second guess this message in my heart. Ok. So I told my mom (she could clearly see the swelling escalating within minutes) so there was no convincing her.
We quickly talked it over. Why am I reacting now? Well…maybe I was reacting all along but I never knew why. I was always pinpointing the wrong thing.. or just not the “trigger”. Or maybe it was overload from house toxins? Since I took myself out of the environment (just think like when you take milk or gluten out for a week and then reintroduce it, the reaction is exaggerated since your immune system got a break) I re-entered the house and BAM.. exaggerated allergic reaction.
So within 1 hour I quickly packed several things (aka threw stuff in a laundry basket). By the time I stepped outside again my whole body was swollen and my left eye black and blue. I needed to get a few things before I left so it was a necessary reaction caused by staying in the house after the initial few minutes of knowing.
Funny how the plans in life work out. My parents found a house (finally) that had a separate guest house and some land a few weeks before. We always knew finding more land away from fumes and chemicals was a must for me to get outside. And the hope was to transform the guest house into a safe-non-toxic- organic house for me. So since we owned the property I decided to set up a tent in the yard. Me and the clothes on my back and the few laundry baskets..
 to be continued…
p.s. thanks you for all the prayers. God was listening the whole time, but He allowed time to pass to transform and change my life and those close to me (despite it being very hard). Im much better now and really on the mend. Its still so surreal… but It would only be right to give all the credit to God for this miracle !
disclosure 3

Big December Giveaway: $500 Amazon giftcard

**Giveaway closed**



♩♪♫♬ I wish you a Merry Christmas. I wish you a Merry Christmas. I wish you a Merry Christmas…And a Happy New Year. Good tidings we bring…To you and your kin…We wish you a Merry Christmas…And a Happy New Year! ♩♪♫♬


Let’s Celebrate

That is my little holiday song for you…do you like it? I thought I would start off by celebrating the Christmas season with you. I love December… The falling snow. The twinkling tree lights. The smell of peppermint and cinnamon. The giggles & smiles.

Christmas giveaway

Now I don’t like to put too much emphasis on gifts because I like to focus on the true meaning of Christmas…but I still like to surprise my family members with a special treasure. I love the feeling of handing over a wrapped present and watching my parents and siblings smile in delight. So I decided THAT is exactly what I want to do for one of you.

I would like to offer one lucky winner a amazon gift card for ….. $500!!! Awesome right?! 

Bloggers unite

I have decided to team up with 10 other bloggers to create this awesome big giveaway! It’s a way to say “thank you” to each one of you for reading and supporting us as we blog about our kitchen creations and journeys in life. Enjoy this wonderful Christmas season ❤️


Follow these instructions…



1. Go HERE & look around. In the comments tell me what you would buy if you won.

Incase you need some ideas…here are things I would buy if I had $500 for amazon.

**Please link to your item (copy and paste the amazon URL) in your comments


2. Subscribe to my newsletter below. (You can unsubscribe at anytime after the giveaway). Just so you don’t worry…I will not sure your email with anyone. ok!

3. Share away!! You can pin this giveaway on Pinterest (here is my pin), tweet it on twitter, share with friends on Facebook.  Copy and paste this URL ( http://www.mygutsy.com/big-december-giveaway-500-amazon-giftcard/ ) or use my share links to the left.


4. Use the Rafflecopter below to confirm all your entries for the giveaway!


P.S. Do you see the list of the other 11 bloggers participating in this giveaway below? To get additional entries you can subscribe to each of their newsletters! Go do it!


The giveaway will go from 12AM December 9 to 12AM December 21 EST. I will announce the winner on this post and my Facebook page December 21.

a Rafflecopter giveaway


More entries:

Click on each blog below to subscribe to their newsletter and earn additional giveaway entries:

Rooted Blessings

House Barn Farm

Real Food RN

Happy Health Nut

Blue Yurt Farms

Five Little Homesteaders

Hollywood Homestead

Learning and Yearning

Real Food Forager

Food Your Body With Thank You For

A Whole New Mom


Giveaway details

No purchase necessary. You must be 18 to enter. The giveaway will begin at 12am on December 9th 2013 end 12 am on December 21st 2013 EST. The winner will have 48 hours to contact Gutsy with his/her full name, address, and phone number (use my contact me tab). By entering you are agreeing that Gutsy will be held harmless if in some way this giveaway/ sweepstakes somehow negatively impacts the winner. Anyone can enter! Void where prohibited by law.


~Stay Gutsy, Caroline


disclosure 3

Allergy Free Holiday Recipes


100+ Allergy Free Holiday Recipes

Alrighty, here is probably the BEST allergy-free holiday roundup out there! It’s filled with over 100 recipes from all my favorite bloggers. I asked several of my blogger friends what their favorite holiday recipes are and I was blown away at the creativity and yummy creations they shared with me. I decided to put together a “round up” to make it easier on you when you are looking for inspirations during the holidays. It’s quite fun searching through all these categories and I promise you will not be disappointed!

Defining “allergy free”

When I say “allergy-free” I am including a wide range of ingredients. All of these recipes are gluten-free. Most are paleo/grain-free but there is the occasional use of tapioca, arrowroot, or rice. I can’t please everyone, but I sure hope you can find at least one you like. Several of these recipes can be converted into GAPS (if they are not already) by using honey instead of maple syrup or the various “safe ingredients” for you. I have experience converting coconut oil for butter in many recipes and I think it turns out quite nice.


Hopefully this list of fabulous recipes is not too overwhelming for you. Several of the “pumpkin desserts” or “apple desserts” would make a lovely holiday breakfast treat as well. You may notice several variations of a certain recipe and that is because each blogger/cook has their own secret and I did not want to limit you to just one kind. Personally my favorite section to look through was the “savory cooked veggies”. It could be because I’m a veggie-lover, but they are so inspirational and colorful. Enjoy!

I hope your holidays will be filled with joy and peace. Enjoy all the holiday recipe contributions from my creative friends. 🙂

♥ Love, Gutsy


Meat & eggs

How to cook a pastured turkey by Mommypotamus

Perfect moist Turkey by GNOWFGLINS

Sage rubbed turkey breast by A Happy Health Nut

GAPS liver pate by Gutsy

Sweet and sour meatballs by Homemade Dutch Apple Pie

Simply divine chicken liver pate by Divine Health from the inside out

Homemade honey baked Ham by Divine health from the inside out

Bacon Wrapped Jalapeño poppers by Gluten Free & Other allergen Free Recipes

Lemon, mustard and bacon deviled eggs by Homemade Dutch Apple Pie

Honey herb chicken by Homemade Dutch Apple Pie

Frog legs by Gutsy

Bacon wrapped dates by Homemade Dutch Apple Pie

Bacon, apple & kale quiche cups by Libby Louer

Beef Cuts (prepared various ways) by Gutsy

 done 22

Sweet Veggies

Acorn squash stuffed with spiced pears by Natural Family Today

Honey balsamic roasted carrots by A Harmony Healing

Nourishing sweet potato casserole by Divine Health from the inside out

Bourbon & honey glazed carrots by So Let’s Hang Out

Sweet potato casserole by Homemade Dutch Apple Pie

Warm pumpkin and apple harvest salad by The Urban Ecolife

Indian roasted butternut squash by My Heart Beets

Boston Market style sweet potatoes by Read Food Outlaws

 soups 4


Purple Cauliflower soup by A Harmony Healing

Cream of broccolini soup with pecan, cherry, & feta crumble by Ravenous Venus

Cauliflower soup topped with bacon & basil guacamole by The Sour Path is the Sweetest

Hardy lentil soup by The Organic Kitchen

Creamy carrot chicken soup by Gutsy

Autumn soup by My Heart Beets

Roasted butternut squash soup by Libby Louer

Golden beet soup with roasted garlic cashew cream by With Food and Love


Raw Veggies

Spinach salad with white balsamic by The Organic Kitchen

Christmas wreath vegetable platter by Divine health from the inside out

Fermented lemon kale and savory cabbage by A Harmony Healing

Pesto Pea salad by Homemade Dutch Apple Pie

Red Slaw with Fennel by Nourish with Karen



Savory Veggies (cooked)

Paleo Braised Brussel Sprouts by Matthew’s Puzzle

Pimento stuffed Peppers by Homemade for Elle

Sauteed Cauliflower by Homemade for Elle

Very simple Asparagus and peppers by Scratch Mommy

Brussels sprout and sweet potato hash by The organic Kitchen

Roasted vegetables by The Organic Kitchen

Green bean casserole by Divine health from the inside out

Kefir pepper cauliflower mash by Food your body will thank you for

Kohlrabi fries by Little Owl Crunchy mamma

Roasted harvest veggies by The Sour Path is the Sweetest

Roasted cauliflower with garlic and rosemary by The Sour Path is the Sweetest

Garlic broccolini by Gutsy

Shaved brussels sprouts with macadamia nuts by Real Food Whole Health

Easy roasted root vegetables  by Real Food Whole Health

Green beans with mustard and thyme by Real Food Outlaws



Fruity sides

Persimmon Chutney by Lisa’s Counter Culture

Cinnamon Ginger Pear butter  by Natural Family Today

Spicy pineapple cranberry chutney by Pickle Me Too

Easy cranberry sauce by Wellness and Workouts

Cranberry cherry apple sauce by Recipes to Nourish

Lacto fermented pear butter by Little Owl Crunchy mamma

Cranberry orange relish with ginger and nuts by Delicious Obsessions

All natural jellied cranberry sauce by Nourishing Herbalist

Cranberry mint mousse by A Happy Health Nut


“Bread” & sides

Amish Hot pepper mustard by Natural Family Today

Creamy GAPS gravy by Empowered Sustenance

Scalloped Potatoes (dairy free) by Food Your Body Will Thank You For

Paleo “Cornbread” muffins by Empowered Sustenance

Coconut herb flatbread by Gutsy

Thanksgiving bread by My Heart Beets

Chicken bread bites by Strands of My Life

Grain-free Thanksgiving stuffing by Real Food Forager

Paleo sausage stuffing by Hollywood Homestead

Homemade style stuffing (GAPS & paleo) by Mommypotamus


Chocolate Desserts

Dark hot chocolate with grapefruit zing by Ravenous Venus

Chocolicious muffins by Lisa’s Counter Culture

Coconut chocolate almond cookies by Natural Family Today

Chocolate pumpkin parfait by Made to Glow

Paleo chocolate mousse by Authentic Parenting

No Bake chocolate macaroons by Red and Honey

Ultimate Dark chocolate truffles by Divine health from the inside out

Cherry chocolate walnut bliss by Divine health from the inside out

Brownie bites with mint buttercream by The Sour Path is the Sweetest

French chocolate silk pie by Paleo Fondue

GAPS chocolate bread by Gutsy


Fruity Desserts

Lemon blueberry chia seed pudding by A Harmony healing

Lemon Tart by Strands of My Life

Fresh berry fruit tart by Life Made Full

Orange cloud cake by The Sour Path is the Sweetest

GAPS lemon bars by Gutsy

Spiced cranberry apple cider by 20 Something Allergies

Cranberry ginger smoothie by A Happy Health Nut

Healthy banana muffins by Real Food Carolyn

Upside down cranberry orange bread by Meg’s Vegucation


Apple Desserts

Grain free Apple and pear crisp by So let’s hang out

Apple streusel upside down cake by  The Nourishing Home

Best apple crisp recipe by Wellness and Workouts

Apple cranberry crumble by Wellness and Workouts

Salted caramel apple bars by Don’t Waste the Crumbs

Really easy apple crisp by The Sour Path is the Sweetest

Baked molasses apples by Gutsy

Apple pie bites by Delicious Obsessions

 1pumpkin1donePumpkin/squash Desserts

Pumpkin pie spice bliss balls by the Urban Ecolife

Squash pie with ginger whipped cream by Divine health from the inside out

Pumpkin bar recipe by Wellness and Workouts

Creamy pumpkin pie custard by The Nourishing Home

Cinnamon squash sticks with apple butter dip by Libby Louer

Pumpkin pie cheesecake by Healing Cuisine

Apple butter pumpkin pie by My Heart Beets

Dairy free banana pumpkin ice-cream by Real food RN

Paleo pumpkin muffins by Hollywood Homestead

Mini pumpkin parfaits by Meg’s Vegucation

Chocolate pumpkin banana bread by Libby Louer

The ultimate gluten free & vegan pumpkin pie by Meg’s Vegucation


Cookies & Sweets

GAPS snickerdoodles by Gutsy

Dream Cookies by The Nerdy Farm Wife

Almond flour sugar cookies by Nourish with Karen

“Sugar” cookie cut-outs by The Nourishing Home

Wholesome Ginger bread cookie cut-outs by The Nourishing Home

Raw macadamia coconut fudge by Yummy Inspirations

Honey toffee shortbread by The Sour Path is the Sweetest

Sugar cookie cupcakes by The Sour Path is the Sweetest

Rice porridge with toasted black sesame seeds by Little Owl Crunchy Mamma

Cheesecake cookies by Learning and Yearning

Raw cheesecake by Honey Ghee and Me

Cut out cookies with honey almond glaze by Just Enjoy Food



Whipped honey cinnamon cocoghee by Delicious Obsessions

Dairy free coconut milk whipped cream by Gutsy

Homemade sweetened condensed milk by Don’t Waste the Crumbs

Real deal marshmallows by An Organic Wife

Pumpkin pie spiced non dairy creamer  by Don’t Waste the Crumbs

Vanilla honey by Gutsy

GAPS chocolate drops by Gutsy

Spiced coconut cream ice cream by The Aliso Kitchen





Stay Gutsy, Caroline

disclosure 3

Coconut flour Herb Flatbread


The recipe pile

Do you ever feel like even if you try and try and try…the pile of  “things to do” will never get smaller. That my friends, is the definition of blogging. Don’t get me wrong. I love writing and sharing my knowledge and recipes, but once in a while I get overwhelmed.

Take my recipe pile for example. It actually used to be a real pile of coconut-oil stained post-it notes. Last month I roughly typed up the hard to read recipes and counted over 20 recipes! It was quite fulfilling seeing the recipes I spent so much time concocting last year in clean writing. I even has most of the pictures already taken too.

The hard part is juggling everything together (blogging, researching, recipe making, emails and social media…). I will tell you a little secret. I have about 186 unread comments that need to be read and responded to. I have about 300 emails that need to be read (you know the ones that actually are important and can’t just be deleted).

I can’t get caught up thinking “I will never be on top of things”…because honestly I don’t think I will. I have learned to accept that and just do what I can, when I can. I hope you understand.

Grain free & dairy free 

A few days ago I asked several of you on Facebook if you were dairy free. I got an overwhelming response that YES most of you are dairy free and prefer using coconut milk in cooked recipes. I made this recipe with both raw milk and coconut milk. I think my family preferred the recipe with coconut milk because it was lighter. You can certainly choose what you want to use, but I think the homemade coconut milk or this one (no additives) or this one (BPA-free) would taste great even if you are not dairy free.

A note on the coconut flour. I have found that my favorite brand is this one. Why? Because it is very fluffy and almost powdery (like real flour) instead of heavy like coconut flour is known to be. Also make sure to let the batter sit so the coconut flour can absorb all the liquid first. If you use a denser coconut flour like this one, be sure to sift the flour (you can use a sifter or a fine mesh sieve) so the recipe turns out the same.

This recipe is pretty simple and was inspired by my coconut flour pizza crust. You may think its exactly the same, but actually it is quite different with the herbs and olive oil added. I think it deserves its own recipe.


I know many of you can’t have cheese or nightshades so I did not want to specify that this “flatbread” was a pizza crust. I don’t like to limit your creativity with a recipe like this by putting the words “pizza crust” into the title. Half the time we make this, no pizza ingredients are in sight. Actually, this flatbread was first created because my sister could not eat nightshades on her elimination/GAPS diet. This herb flatbread was sliced up and used to be dipped into olive oil with a bit of sea salt added.  I don’t think we made enough because it was gone in 5 minutes.


The second time we made this, I tripled the recipe and froze small flat breads to be warmed up after school or work. I stored them in these gallon sized plastic bags and layered unbleached parchment paper in-between the flatbread (you can fit a few in each bag if you do it this way). All you need to do then, is turn on the oven to 375 and bake until warm and crispy.

Bread substitute 

I think many of you former bread eaters will really like to have this SUPER easy recipe around for a “bread alternative”. Everyone knows that fresh bread tastes the best, right? I would consider this recipe easy and can me made in about 30 min (including cooking time).

Layer some leftover meat, homemade mayo, fresh veggies and you have yourself a sandwich! Feel free to use this as a crust for pizza (my recipe) if that is what you are craving too. This coconut flour herb flatbread is GAPS friendly too.

Enjoy getting creative.



1/2 cup Coconut Flour

3 eggs

1 cup coconut milk (homemade or buy here) or organic whole milk

1/2 tsp sea salt

1/2 tsp dried oregano

1/2 tsp dried basil

1/2 tsp garlic powder

drizzle of organic extra virgin olive oil


1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees.




2. Mix together the coconut flour, sea salt, herbs, & garlic powder in a bowl.






3. Whisk the eggs and coconut milk in a separate bowl.


4. Pour the wet ingredients into the coconut flour mixture.



5. Stir until no clumps are left. Let the batter sit for at least 5 minutes (so the coconut flour absorbs all the liquid). It should resemble a thick paste like the picture above.


Here is the unbleached parchment paper that I used (click here)


6. Prepare your pan. I drizzle some olive oil on the bottom of pan (10 x 15 ” rimmed pan) and then place the parchment paper (oil first helps the corners stick). I also drizzled some olive oil on top of the paper and spread it out with a pastry brush. The olive oil is optional but it gives a nice flavor to the flatbread.


7. Scrape all the batter out of the bowl onto the prepared pan. Spread it evenly across the whole cookie sheet with a spatula. You don’t want the batter too thick or else it may not cook all the way though.

*Another idea would be to create mini flatbreads but they would require less cooking time of course.



8. Place cookie sheet in the oven for about 25-30 min, depending on how crunchy you like the edges. Mine was golden brown on top and was just the right texture.

*This coconut flour flatbread gets softer with time, so if you like it a bit crispy, eat it soon after it comes out of the oven.


9. To remove the parchment paper, just pinch the corner and pull it right out. Cut into slices or any size that you choose.

*Tip: let the crusts cool all the way to room temperate before freezing


~Stay Gutsy, Caroline

disclosure 3

Healing update #7

June…July…August…September…October…November. Where did the time go? I feel like my life is on hold (which is why it is so hard for me to post this update, because it feels like nothing has changed). As much as it seems like my routine has been like this forever, I look back and try to remember that things have changed (for the better).


Time passes by…

Let’s start with June. June was anticipation. Waiting for answers. Excited to figure everything out.

July was shock. I was in shock that I flew on a plane without getting “too” sick. But reality struck and I was left burned out like I have never felt before. Little did I know the price I was about to pay for 1 day worth of travel. I got answers from my Dr. and I held on tight, believing it was THE answer. I think I held on a little too tight. I thought it was as easy as just “fixing” the problem, but I was abruptly reminded I don’t have control.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Prov. 3:5&6

August was still. After traumas from July, I just could not take another step. Sleep was the word and the only activity I wanted.

September was routine. Sleep, eat, detox, repeat.

October was lost & Peace. Honestly, its really hard for me to remember what I did, but I can remember that it was really a peaceful month. Somewhere in my brain are the lost memories of October. hmm…..

November is… I’m living it right now.


It used to be hard to look back and remember only one swim, a few days at the beach and little sunshine. I can’t look at life regretting what I haven’t done. Yes it’s sad for a second but I get over it fast…really fast. Why is it so hard to understand why I wouldn’t have it any other way? I don’t want to do things I know I cant have right now. That includes an energetic body, a clear mind, endurance, etc.

People always associate “giving in” as being a failure. I disagree. I believe the only way to fully heal and become who you were designed to be, is to give in. Give in to what your body is telling you, even if you don’t want to. Give in to your quirks and don’t hold back to please people. Being ok with not finishing what you started or not “giving it your all” can be good. For me, this comes as a challenge. Physically, when I knew I could not finish treatments, I viewed myself as a failure. It was hard to explain to people that my reason was exhaustion. “Oh there is a simple fix for that: sleep more!” I’m afraid that does not cut it.

I dreamt of a “fix” to my failing health for as long as I can remember, and the minute I experienced this “fix”, I knew I was done. That “done” feeling went beyond just the treatment. I felt “done” in life (no not “done” like dying…let me explain). I was done searching for answers that were so hard to reach. I was done trying to hold myself up each day. I was done trying to fix my problem with little or no success. I was done trying to please people. I was done feeling guilty for things I could not do. I was done thinking and processing (which explains the lack of posting). I was done trying to fix my problem with everything I had. I gave up doing it on my own and put my trust somewhere else…

Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock. Isaiah 26:4

Giving into your body

The day I “gave up” I slept a long long tim (17-ish hours). For days  weeks I felt every step was a marathon, every word was a speech, every dish to wash was a tower. I stopped everything, no chiropractor, no ozone treatments, no exercise, no sauna, no researching, no reading (or very little), no doctors appotiments, no NAET, no leaving the house.

Seriously. As the days went on, I felt like I was failing my purpose in life. My “roles” in life a a sister, a blogger, a researcher, a friend all went out the window. Basically I had entered survival mode. What does survival mode look like? Sleeping a lot, eating when you have the energy to cook, and doing only the best you can do. I can’t say Im out of “survival mode” but its a start just being able to sit down and write this. Though, it is very hard… I don’t like typing this all out. Maybe because I am realizing that the end does not seem near and that maybe I have even back tracked! It is taking me days to gather the brain power, but I know I need to write it down for me and you.

What is Life?

You may think Im missing out on life. But what is “life” anyways? Life used to be a school day or a accomplished feeling of a run and completed tasks. A day full of cooking or meeting new people. A days worth of research and understanding for something I did not know existed. I never really wondered what taking the next step would feel like or if the next breath was filled with “safe” air. I see things more clearly now. Every breath is precious. Every conversation counts. Each day is not easy, but each second matters more then it ever did. It’s how you view life and the way you soak in every moment that matters most.

I have SO much to tell you!

Ok enough with all my thoughts about my situation. Let me pick up where I last left you in my “healing journey”. One reason I have been procrastinating is because sooo much has happened, it’s overwhelming. Not just that, but I have to put words to all my actions and the reasoning behind them. Here I go!

Screen Shot 2013-11-11 at 1.25.29 AM


Let me get started. In healing update #6 I have all those test results that Dr. Mullan (the genetic Dr.) ran. I got those and held onto them. I saw on paper that I am toxic, and struggling to function. I knew the only option (in her professional opinion) was to take supplements to help my detox pathways, but we all know I can’t do that. That was a big stumbling block and it was so big I never followed up. Sometimes I kick myself and say “what a waste”, but really it was not because I needed proof and it may still some in handy in the future. The genetic 23 and me test will never change, so thats a good thing. If I ever want to dive into the gentic world and figure out all my issues, I have the option.

Right now going down the genetic path is #1 depressing: because its all about pointing out what is wrong with the way I’m made. #2 pointless: I cant take the supplements needed to fix these mutations. #3 Epigenetics: that means your genetics can change (or be expressed) based on your environment and your daily habits (Im hoping I can change a few things around!). Learn more here.

Taking the plunge

In desperate need for SOMEONE who understands, I decided it was time to search outside hometown radius. I ended up going to Missouri to see Dr. Yu. I know I know…I not only came out of my “bubble” but I went on a plane!! Crazy! Honestly, I could have not done it without everyone’s prayers, so thank you.  I still am in awe I did that, and am also happy it’s over and done with.

Screen Shot 2013-11-11 at 4.03.15 AM

Before the trip I read his book, which helped me understand a lot more too. He is like the dream doctor I thought would have all the answers. It was a reality check to go because I saw that “these doctors” are just human. They don’t hold the key or answers. All they can do us help. He did say most of my health problems, from what he tested were due to my cavitations.


What are cavitations you ask? In simple words, they are are hole in the bone (after a tooth has been extracted) and are often filled with bacteria, fungi, and mercury.  If you want to learn more click here.

Improper extraction and not removing the ligament (which most oral surgeons and dentists don’t do anyways) creates the growth of the cavitation in the jaw bone. Overtime the bacteria that was stuck in the socket and tissues make little or big holes in jawbone and create a chronic infection. After the tissue heals over, it’s very hard to get to his infection that is now spreading through the lymphatic system affecting other systems and organs in the body.

Back to my story —> I got all 4 wisdom teeth out from a regular oral surgeon when I was 17. Looking back I did get a lot more sick after 2 1/2 rounds of antibiotics before the surgery and after due to an infection in the lower left jaw. (I now know antibiotics can severely impair the liver and detox pathways). But, I was confused when Dr Yu told me this, because I was pretty mess up before this surgery .

What did the Dr. find?

So Dr. Yu found cavitations under tooth #17 and #20. At their clinic the took all these cool alternative testing and scans. They took a thermograph and could tell from the white areas around my mouth and sinuses that there was a infection. They hooked me up to different electronic tests and basically it showed my body was functioning pretty well (what?!), despite the way I feel. He did take a hair test and said depending on the results and if I had heavy metals, then that could play a big role in my health mystery (a hair test takes a few weeks to get the results back).

Screen Shot 2013-11-11 at 3.54.50 AM

I would also recommend this book to understand the full tooth-body connection. I have it and learned ALOT of information about how my teeth really impact how my body functions.

Tooth-organ Meridian chart:

Before you read any further, you have to look at this tooth-organ-meridican chart. Each tooth (or actually the position the tooth is in, is part of a complete meridian that runs through the whole body.)



EDS (electoral dermal screening)

Dr Yu. used EDS (electoral dermal screening) on my fingers and toes to determine if the meridians corresponding to different organs were off balance or not. Learn about EDS here (a.k.a. Acupuncture meridian assesment) or view the video above.

At first, Dr. Yu did the EDS points and nothing unusual showed up. He said that is probably because I do so many therapies at home to help balance my body ( RIFE, NAET, etc..). So then the goal was to try and unbalance my body to get the “real” results. He got up and pulled out this light box thing. He started to roll a metal roller over my head and body. First the frequency was a purple light. Then he did a yellow light. He rolled 2 opposing colors on me to confuse any bacteria out of “hiding”. I think it works because the bacteria or parasites are attracted to the frequency and then thrown off guard when he runs the opposing one.

He ran the EDS again and started to do some of his “own points” he calls it. If you read his book here, this will all make more sense. He is very skilled at testing with EDS (he has kinda mastered the techniques). Anyways, this time a few things did show up with a few
systems/organs. I can’t remember exactly what systems but he did not make it a big deal. I think one was the allergy point.

View the interactive Tooth-Merdian Chart HERE!

Digging deeper

Dr. Yu then had me touch each tooth socket with my finger and tested me as I did this. Right away the EDS reading went off the chart (indicating an imbalance) specifically on tooth #20 and #17. #17 was the wisdom tooth socket that got infected and #20 was a tooth that had no adult tooth underneath it (I was born like this) and got infected and I had it pulled when I was about 16.

He said my immune system or allergy point is not balanced and tried to balance it by hooking me up to this new German machine that balances meridians. I’m not sure exactly if it helped, but I just went with the flow. Maybe it helped me cope on the flight home?

Overall my thoughts about this appointment are that, I finally had an answer to all my problems…or so I thought. This doctor is brilliant but things got in the way of the next appointment, and honestly it was not meant to be that I went back right now in my life. I am so thankful he lead me in the right direction and searched hard even though he considered me a “mystery”.


Test Results:

A few weeks after that trip I got my test results from the hair analysis lab (from analytical research labs) and the ELISA food test. I already had a hair test done by doctors data (this exact test <–which showed very high mercury) but he wanted this lab (ARL) because they don’t wash the hair sample. I now know that’s important because seeing the minerals is half the part of the analysis. (I will talk more about this hair analysis and the results in healing update #8).

The ELISA food test showed I had several allergies (not surprising)! It was deceiving because some things I knew for a fact I was allergic to but they showed up fine. I’m guessing thats because I have not eaten them in years so the antibodies were not visible on a blood test.

Oh I forgot to mention that when I was in Missouri seeing DR. Yu, he sent me to a dentist 5 min away to get an x ray. I hate getting x rays but I had to do it. (Here is a cool post about combating radiation if you are interested.) I then returned to him with the x ray but he said he could see no visible cavitations in the x-ray and that I should bring it to my dentist at home. He recommended his holistic dentist down the block to do the cavitation surgery. I tried to explain I live in MN, but since he could not recommend anyone else other then this holistic dentist, he said to get another option because he cannot “diagnose” me. Hint hint… It’s a legal thing.

The Holistic Dentist

Ok so I’m back in MN and scheduled an appt with my holistic dentist. I decide I want to see the head dentist who is harder to get into, but I knew would understand my situation more. This clinic does not do cavitation surgery but instead ozone therapy. I was I skeptical at first after hearing that Dr. Yu instructed me to look into cavitation surgery. I did hours of research looking into therapies, solutions and clinics for cavitations. I was so torn, it all became confusing knowing what was really the right path.

Ozone for cavitations

I finally accepted that ozone is the better way to go, because there is always a change of reinfection with surgery…and it’s much more stressful on the body (of course, it’s surgery!!). I always knew that if this did not work, then I can always consider surgery. The ozone almost seemed “too easy” of a solution, well that’s what I thought. But after talking to my holistic dentist, he told me that patients he has seen, heard stories about, and worked with personally do better with ozone. I was relieved too because the only close cavitation surgeon was a 7 hour drive. **ahem! Im getting ahead of myself. Sorry.**


Hello, I’m Dr. T…

So I go to my first appointment and met Dr. Tchetter (pronounced cheddar). I can tell right away he is very intuitive and alittle quirky  (always the qualities of a good doctor, right?). He takes a look at my x ray and points out that I not only have cavitations in those two spots but also in all the other extractions from my wisdom teeth surgery. Now I’m thinking…”Great 5 cavitations in my jaw!”. He points out the the one in the bottom left is for sure the biggest (the spot where I got the nasty infection a few weeks after my surgery).

He explains that the ozone treatment is pretty effective and continues to tell me stories of patients who got better from these treatments. He even tells me of this one story of a girl my age with pretty much allergies to everything like me. Her family built her an underground house where she stayed for 3 years. After the 3 years of staying in her “safe” environment, Dr. T saw her and she was all better. He said she did this to let her body heal naturally and “reset” her immune system, and the only was she could do that was to remove all reactants. This story freaked me out (but at the same time…something connected), how could someone not come outside for 3 years? Little did I know this would be a similar situation for my future (I will explain).

The ozone procedure:

Back to the ozone treatments. It works like this. I go in for a few “tester” appointments to see if I react appropriately to ozone. They give me a fraction on the dose and inject it into the gums around the cavitations (like teeny-tiny). Since I have sinus issues, he planed on doing extra injections in the upper gums close to the nose. Then he will do the full doses and inject all the way into the jawbone (not sure exactly how this is done because I stopped after the second treatment).

Heavy Metals 

Then it’s my turn and I pretty much tell him my whole life story and how I got to where I am today. He is nodding his head saying “ahh” and has this look like he knows exactly what is going on. He asks a few questions and concludes that it probably all started with my mom (like other doctors suspected in the past). I know for a fact she has heavy metals because they showed up in her recent hair test. She probably had a lot more 20 years ago when she was pregnant with me.

2010-02-19 (8) 0010

As a 2 year old my enamel on my teeth would crumble, scary right? I was sent to the dentist and they filled tooth #20 and #29 (they are mirror to each other on the bottom). The were filled with …… Mercury fillings!!! Nooooo! My stomach dropped when I found this out, I was devastated, but I guess relived at the same time (that its not all in my head)! The picture above is my dentist when I was little….yeah I’m thinking the SAME thing!!! agghh. 

I think these 2 mercury filled teeth fell out around the age of 6, so that’s like 4 years of mercury vapors. Funny thing, I may still have those toxic teeth in a tiny little container, in an envelope, in a little box, in a bigger box, stuffed in the back of my closet. You know those little tooth containers to collect all your teeth that fell out? I’m not going to even try to dig those things out, let alone touch them.

Connecting the Dots

So that situation contributed to a huge host of issues and that’s probably why I was diagnosed as OCD at age 2 and put on some medicines that make all holistic doctors cringe and say “that was unnecessary…really?”. These meds are known to potentially damage the liver… which they probably did for me.

Dr. T explains I was/am probably allergic or sensitive to mercury more then most. That just escalated and created more food allergies and behavioral issues. He kept asking me if I went crazy, he was sure at some point I should have. I told him I got braces as a teenager for about 5 years (stubborn headgear!). He said the nickle content is very high and probably intoxicated my brain even more, creating more allergies and a depressed immune system. Then came the tooth extraction of my dead #20. Then the wisdom teeth surgery after my braces came off and now I’m left with 5 cavitations that are feeding infectious bacteria into my lymph systems. My body is under chronic stress 24/7. Below are the spots and tooth numbers that were removed from my mouth (the improper way) so they each developed a cavitation “hole in the bone”.


Toxic waste dumps

I told him my sinuses are an issue and he explained that mercury like to lodge itself in 3 main places. The lower back, the lower jaw and the sinuses. My sinuses are full of mercury from years of chewing and vapors being released. I read an article about a dentist who did a cavitation surgery and did not close the incision but instead put a strip or gauze over it for 24 hours. After that time he tested the gauze and found incredibly high amounts of mercury on the gauze. This confirms that the cavitations are pretty much toxic waste dumps of mercury as well! Yuck.

After our good talk, I was hopeful. He also checked for cavities and I have 2 small ones he is going to “watch”.  We talked about making impressions of my teeth to get a “tray” fitted for them so each time I come in, they can put ozone in the trays that cover my teeth. This is suppose to help reverse tooth decay, kill bacteria, and prevent any cavities from getting worse. I was afraid of reacting to the plaster they needed to make the impression, so we put this idea on hold. If you are curious about ozone for tooth decay read about it here. Its a fairly new practice, so you may not find a ton of info.

Screen Shot 2013-11-11 at 5.25.47 AM

Reverse tooth decay

I also have weakening enamel on several teeth (they look like little chips or holes on the top of my tooth and are REALLY sensitive). I’m determined to heal both cavities and the enamel. If you read this book, you will know its possible too. I just have to find a way to start absorbing minerals and make them available for my teeth. Im currently eating bison bone marrow every day (as suggested in this article), to heal my tooth decay. Out of the suggestions in the chart below, I can only eat grass-fed bone marrow. But, hey at least I have one of the “Tooth-Decay-Reversing- Protocol foods!”

tooth decay

Here are my thoughts posted on my Instagram right after the appointment:

“When chronic health problems started at 12 years old I never thought I would be the one with the “mystery” case that no doctor could figure out. I never thought I would have to go through so much and in the process have big pieces of my life taken from me. Yesterday I found out my #teeth are a big culprit. Not the whole picture- but a very big one. I can now dream of #gettingbetter . Teeth #17 and#20 have infections under in the jaw bone. Once in the #jawbone these infections can spread throughout the body and infect any organ. Usually it damages the meridian it lies along. In my case my#thyroid, #digestivesystem, #energy, small and large#intestines, #stomach, #spleen #lymph #eczema all all just symptoms of my infections. The “normal” dentist never found them and neither did an x ray. My new doctor ran several energetic meridian testing, thermography of my face, and light therapy to find out what the problem was and narrowed it down to these two teeth. I am #thankingGod for revealing these #piecestomypuzzle”

Starting Ozone therapy

I came back to the holistic dentist 2 weeks later and started my first ozone “tester” treatment. The dentist’s assistant mixed some olive oil in the ozone bottles and hooked me up to start breathing it in (the ozone machine is pictured below). The olive oil is so I don’t breath it directly into my lungs. I was fine with that and then they did the ears.

Since I seemed ok with that, he decided to inject a little bit of pure ozone into my gums and upper jaw for my sinuses. 13 injections total. He was using a tiny amount to start off with. He tested me with kinesiology to see if I was ok with the pure anesthetic with no additive. I was very hesitant and questioned his judgement several times. Right after swabbing the anesthetic on, I felt strange. My mouth was wide open and he started with all the injections. There was pressure, but I kept thinking back to when he swabbed with the anesthetic, THAT was the painful part. I did not think twice about the needle or 13 injections. (This was only a matter or seconds from start to finish but it felt like forever.)


Surprise attack

After I closed my mouth and swallowed, I was in for a surprise. My throat started to close! I panicked and gasped for air, they rushed to grab me water and directed me to “swish and spit“. I did this until I could breath. What a scary experience, but at least I made it through and learned to carry my epi pen next time (I have never had to use it yet). Better safe the sorry. I will be honest, I HATE anesthetic, it literally makes me crazy. I promise that is the last time I ever let someone convince me it’s “safe” or whatever. I know he did not know and this experience proved to Dr. T how sensitive I am.

The first time I met him, he mentioned I was “wise beyond my years” and could tell I was very in-tune with my body and instincts. I think after this incident, he trusts my instincts 100%, which can be hard for any doctor.

Going crazy

On the car ride home, my body was going crazy. I was shaking and I could not stop moving my legs and arms and everything. My brain was spinning and I felt like I was going crazy. My face was very swollen and it was so uncomfortable. I just kept crying and blabbering “something is wrong, I need help”! I was obviously reacting badly to the anesthetic.

My mom knew the ER was going to be NO help in this situation. This was a physical and neurological crisis and a chiropractor would actually help. Too bad all 3 chiropractors we have gone to were closed or had no openings (even for an emergency). I went home and drank spoonfuls of powdered activated charcoal (I should have brought it with me).

Panic mode

I still was delirious and kept falling against the wall or on the floor. I think my brother was pretty freaked out for me. My words
were jumbled and not making sense. My mom then thought to call a local chiropractor 4 min from our house that our friends knew, but we never have been to. This is risky territory especially for me. I’m very picky who touches my neck because I have had too many chiropractors “mess me up”. I had no control in this situation and I believe it was all part of Gods greater plan for me.

We were all in panic mode and as the phone rang to see if they had an opening at 6pm of a Friday (I’m sure my mom said a little prayer, begging for anything to fix this terrible situation). We had never been to him, but their office answered with compassion and
accepted to see me even after hours. I’m not sure why, but I kept fight back saying I did not need to go, when clearly I did. Good thing my mom knows me well enough to talk me into going.

….. To be continued healing update #8

Whew! That was a a lot to tell you. Thanks for sticking with me. I want to say that after all these appointments (despite how tragic or stressful they were), I was SOOO relieved to get some answers. I am proud of myself for trying and would not have had it any other way. I thought I had everything figured out. I did have a lot figured out, but not everything. Only time and experiences can tell what will happen. Nothing went as planned for me, and thats ok. Just because some things did not work out for me, does not mean it will not for you. Actually I have a good friend who got the cavitation ozone treatments done 3x over a period of months and she is doing MUCH better (I will post her story soon!) So you see, every body is different, and you will not know unless you try 🙂

~Stay Gutsy Caroline


disclosure 3